Sunday, December 9, 2012

Hawaii 2012

I put off writing about our trip to Hawaii because at first I was disappointed with the way it turned out. On our flight to Oahu I had a fever and chills and was bitterly dismayed that I was heading to a tropical paradise on a much anticipated vacation: sick. During our 8 days in Hawaii, my fever dissipated, but I developed a racking cough that turned into asthma and culminated in a trip to Urgent Care (for breathing treatments and a steroid shot) on our last day there. While I was not immune to the romanticism of pretending I had consumption and had come to the tropics for some restorative sea air, it was--in the end--not the way we had envisioned our getaway. Most of all we had wanted to do some rigorous hikes, which became impossible given the state of my lungs...but even beyond that my cough plagued every moment because I was hesitant to talk, laugh, or exert myself in anyway for fear of setting off another coughing fit. I drank through our host's entire supply of cough syrup--to little effect.

But--as we've been home for over a month, and as I've had time to tell people about our trip, to look at our pictures, and reflect on our memories--I've come to experience a deep sense of thankfulness for the unique and beautiful moments we were able to share in such a gorgeous place. I've come to feel so grateful for the opportunity to make such treasured--though imperfect--memories with Sean that we will always be able to look back on with happiness.

We stayed up in the sky: on the 35th floor of a Honolulu highrise in a condo filled with windows and views. Our bedroom overlooked Diamond Head and Waikiki Beach, and it was magnificent to wake to the sun rising over Diamond Head. Our first night there we had the eerie experience of a tsunami warning--due to an earthquake off the coast of British Columbia. Nothing eventually came of it, but it was a bit unsettling to be perched up in the sky in the dark of night, rain hitting the windows, and tsunami sirens sounding regularly throughout the city.


 The view from our room near sunset.

On Sunday, our second day there, we had the most exhilarating time watching Sean's beloved Giants in Game 4 of the World Series. We sat at a resort bar on Waikiki Beach--eating fries and onion rings, cheering with the other Giants fans, enjoying the warm weather and blue ocean, and ultimately celebrating when Romo struck out Cabrera for the win just as the sun dipped below the horizon in a splendid golden glow. It was a perfect moment.

 

 Wearing orange on Waikiki!




  Our view for Game 4!

Monday we set out feeling like World Champions! After a lot of walking and bus riding we ended up on Kahala Beach:






We walked--dazed by beauty--along the beach until we hit Kahala Beach Resort, where we ate a celebration lunch, and then spent one of the most lovely days of my life tucked into the resort's tiny cove. They have dolphins and sea turtles and tropical fish and rays in pools around the resort and I was as delighted as a child watching the dolphins swim and smile and dive and splash. Then we did some splashing of our own in the clear, cool water of the Pacific. I love swimming in the ocean. To me, it is perhaps the ultimate experience of joie de vivre--the joy of life! There was a floating dock midway out in the cove, and I would swim to it, climb up the ladder, and joyfully fling myself into the water--happy as a clam. Sean was just laughing at how how much fun I was having, jumping off the dock repeatedly. It is one of the best moments I've ever lived. We also spent time reading in our little cabana-like tent, watched the sun set and the moon--the fattest golden coin of a moon I've ever seen--rise.




The cove where we spent our day, and the dock I jumped off of a million times!

Tuesday started with a sunrise hike to the top of the Diamond Head Crater--it was us and at least 6 bus loads of Japanese tourists! The views were--as expected--fantastic. Sean and I imagined what it was like on the morning of the attack on Pearl Harbor as we looked at the island and ocean spread out before us. The rest of the day we spent at Lanikai and Kailua. We hiked up to the Lanikai pillboxes: old bunkers embedded in the hills that are now covered with all kinds of awesome graffiti. The views made me wish that I could "open my eyes to see in all directions at the same time". 



Paradise.

 
At the top of the world!

We ended the day at Lanikai Beach--wading in the cool water, reading, another sunset and another moonrise. I like living close to the rhythms of the day. And I love these two quirky islands jutting up out of the ocean!



Wednesday was Halloween, and to celebrate we put on masks and went snorkeling at Hanauma Bay. Well, I attempted to snorkel. My persistent cough and terrible gag reflex conspired to send me in early, but not before we spotted a REAL LIVE SEA TURTLE just swimming around in the ocean, nibbling off the coral reef and we got to watch him and swim with him and nothing else really mattered after that! Sean kept snorkeling for hours while I had the best nap of my life on the beach--all of the elements were perfect: soft sand, warm and golden sunlight, cool air, wrapped in towels and a rashguard, so sleepy, and just drifting in and out of the most pleasant sleep to the sound of the waves and touch of the wind. That was probably the crowning moment of my napping life. That night we bought a bunch of candy (a Halloween must) and saw Argo at the movie theater. Then we got an enormous bottle of Odwalla Superfood Smoothie and drank it for dinner. I love that Sean is as untraditional as I am, and that we can do things like that whenever we want.

 
Our Halloween masks!

On Thursday we set out to drive around the island! It is such a lovely drive--all green and blue, mountain and ocean, sky and clouds:

   
Chinaman's Hat in the distance.

   
Kind of unreal.

We stopped at Kualoa Ranch (where LOST and Jurassic Park were filmed) and took a "Jungle Expedition"--which involved bouncing through the jungle in an open air bus and seeing tons of amazing things!


This is me on the Jungle Expedition!

   
And this is the kind of stuff we saw!

Next we headed up to the North Shore and visited the site of the Survivor's Camp in LOST. Sean was walking ahead of me and I heard him call to hurry up and come see something--so I rushed up, just in time to see a sea turtle crawling into the surf and swimming off. I was so disappointed that he was leaving right as we got there, but then--as I turned around--I saw FOUR enormous sea turtles laying on the beach right behind me! I kind of freaked out, and sat awestruck in the midst of them, then crawled up super close to look at each one, and talked to them, and took at least 50 pictures and couldn't believe our good fortune!

 
Turtle friends!

   
Sleepy turtle!

 The day ended with terrible Hawaiian Mexican food and gigantic (delicious!) snow cones:

 
Sean has root beer and I've got sour apple!


Friday was a rough day--that was when my breathing became really labored. We attempted a hike, but I couldn't complete it. So we ended up back on one of our favorite beaches: Lanikai. Soft white sand and clear, cool water. That night we went out to dinner in Waikiki with our beautiful and generous host Natalie, and her two other guests who were visiting from California at the same time as us, John and Joyce.

 
At Lulu's.

 And then it was Saturday, and I couldn't breathe, and I finally accepted the fact that I needed medical attention. I got two breathing treatments which helped minimally, and a steroid shot which worked wonders. And the gift was that even though I would come home and be plagued by my cough for another month, and in fact, cough so hard that I sprained a few ribs (which involved the doctor, chiropractor, x-rays, antibiotics, Vicodin, etc), that steroid shot gave me a few perfect hours on our last evening in Hawaii. We were able to complete our Hawaiian tradition of spending our last sunset at Waiamea Bay, and our time there was magical. The water was warmer than usual, the waves were enormous, rolling and foamy and powerful. But it was all about the light--the perfect, richest golden light--sparkling in the sea foam as we splashed in the waves, reflecting off the beautiful Catholic church perched on a hill overlooking the bay, turning the sand dunes to softly sloping hills of gold. The light. The marvelous light. And I could breathe--it felt so wonderful to be able to breathe so easily after struggling with it for so long. Who ever appreciates breathing? But I was conscious of every breath, and every breath was a delight. Being able to breathe so smoothly made me realize how much agony I had been in before. You kind of get used to the struggle, it becomes normal, and you learn to live with it. I imagine that's how life is now in our broken world--we're used to the struggle, we live with it every day and it is our normal--but when we experience the new Heaven and the new Earth: what will it be like? How whole and perfect we will be! Aches and agonies and burdens that we didn't even know we carried will be gone from our backs and we will live and love as we were created to, and each moment will be a magical gift of pure joy and happiness.

So perhaps the best gift Hawaii gave us was getting to experience the tiniest little taste of eternity, while we laughed and played and fought the overwhelming force of the waves: longing for the day when we can give in to the pull of the ocean and let it carry us out to the great depths of Love.

 
Waiamea Bay at sunset. 


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Slowly.

The past couple of weeks have been rough--very taxing and emotionally draining. Friday night, I got home from work and just started sobbing as soon as I walked in the door.

At work, my boss has been in the middle of preparing tax returns (no small matter when you have quite a lot that belongs to you). In the midst this already busy time:

-The dishwasher broke (I've been washing dishes for 2 weeks now)
-The vacuum broke
-The van had to go into the shop for BADLY squealing brakes
-My boss's car broke down
-My boss's computer CRASHED
-My boss's husband went out of town ( = me working late)
-Vinny has had massive amounts of homework ( = me working late)
-The cleaning lady's husband died for suddenly and unexpectedly, which has cast a sorrowful air over daily life and grieved our hearts for her sake

All of those things combined serve to create an atmosphere in which I have so much extra to do and everyone is emotionally charged and stressed out and tired and it's just a lot to carry around on one's shoulders.

Then I come home, and take on a whole new set of responsibilities and stresses and To-Do Lists and sometimes it feels unbearable. All I can see is everything I haven't done, which is particularly discouraging when you're so tired and just want to sleep and sleep and sleep and then wake up and read, and then sleep some more. I'm an idealist and very hard on myself. I have a vision of what I want my home to look like, my marriage to look like, my life to look like, etc. and when I fall short of that (I always do), I feel like such a failure, who will never accomplish anything. I'm also impatient with myself. I don't accept the fact that it's taking me time to shape our new home into the place I want it to be. I want it all done yesterday. I look around and all I can see is that we still need a bookcase, patio furniture, an outdoor umbrella, a rug, storage baskets, plants for the patio, etc, etc, etc! I need to accept that good things are happening. Slowly. Progress is being made. This weekend we bought a hot plate. Now we can eat hot meals. Now we can have things like spaghetti for dinner.

This weekend, I also got: an iPhone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What a wonderful addition to our lives!!! Now I can take and share pictures like this so easily:

Photo: Sunny morning at home. http://instagr.am/p/Q2NpOyktyv/

This morning was sunny and peaceful. I got up before 7. I read. I went to Mass. I love Tuesdays.



The problem is that on my days off I want to do nothing. I want to sleep and read, and I feel so overwhelmed by all that I have to do that I just sleep, sleep, sleep, and feel awful at the end of the day for getting nothing done. Even our vacations are stressing me out! Instead of looking forward to our upcoming trip to Hawaii, I feel stressed out about it because I haven't planned out our time there yet. Which hikes will we go on? Which beaches will we visit? What days should we rent a car? At this point, I want to throw in (out) the (beach) towel, and say, "We're spending every day at the same beach, laying in the sun, reading, and swimming, and drinking Mai Tais. For 8 days." That kind of sounds like paradise.

I need peace and acceptance, and not some furious demand of life that it be exactly the way I think it should be. The world spins on. The Giants are having a heck of a post season, and my husband is loving every second of it. Tonight we are going to Pasadena to place an order for a custom designed bookshelf made of reclaimed wood built by these guys ( http://www.arborla.com ), which I am SO excited about.

And 11 days from today we take off for Paradise. Honolulu, Oahu, Hawaii.

Lord, have mercy.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

October Magic!

I love October--for so many reasons!

I had my first kiss sitting on a brick doorstep on an October night 9 years ago.

I got engaged on the side of the North-bound 5 freeway on another October night 3 years ago.

October ushers in the most magical part of the year...Fall, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, being with family...The promise of all these wonderful things lives in the cool, crisp air that finally starts to emerge...

I go for walks, and bright orange pumpkins adorn all the porches in our neighborhood. I can almost taste my mom's chili, served over a bowl of rice on a chilly autumn evening. All of life starts to feel like a Harry Potter novel.

And best of all, pomegranates are in season! What wondrous grace!!!


Sunday, September 23, 2012

The Hobbit: Long Beach, 2012

Sometimes--when you've been moving, and traveling, and working non-stop for what seems like forever--you need to take a day off and enjoy friends, food, and a great story. So that's what we did yesterday. We started the day with breakfast (in good Hobbit fashion) at Jason's house with Greg and Lauren. Then those two had to be off, and Sean, Jason, and I settled down to read The Hobbit aloud in honor of its 75th anniversary. And that's how we spent a simple, beautiful day. We had breaks for lunch (warm bread, brie, and fruit) and dinner (London broil, baked potatoes, rolls, and butter that I begged off a neighbor at 9 p.m.), a walk to the park, and a cookie break after midnight. When I wasn't the one reading, I colored and wrote in my journal, or just laid on my back and enjoyed being still. We didn't finish until almost 1 a.m. and when we were done we had journeyed with Bilbo through Rivendell and the Misty Mountains, through Mirkwood and all the way to the Lonely Mountain and the lair of Smaug himself--and then back home again to the Shire. What an adventure!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Rosh Hashanah 2012

No school, so we make friendship bracelets for hours.

Giuliana lets me wiggle her loose tooth, and I am filled with childlike wonder over the miracle of losing teeth.

Vinny says, "Carolyn, who was that guy who rode around yelling 'The Rednecks are coming!' ?"
I ask, "Do you mean the 'Redcoats'?"
Paul Revere will never be the same.

In short, I love Jewish holidays.

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Sister Weekend (Minus One)



2 weeks ago, on Friday night, August 31st, after a 4 hour flight delay, I landed at San Francisco International Airport and met up with Cayla and Cathryn for a Labor Day weekend full of hiking and exploring in the Bay Area. The only thing missing was our dear, sweet Camie. 

Cayla and I starting off on our first hike of the weekend on Saturday:



This is us after our first hike--a 9 mile round trip hike in Montara/Pacifica.


Sunday we rode BART into San Francisco:



It was an absolutely gorgeous day in the City, clear and warm, blue skies and sunshine. We climbed 284 steps up Filbert Street--the steepest street in a city full of steep streets.





We went to the top of Coit Tower:


We explored some beautiful Catholic churches in Little Italy, including the National Shrine of Saint Francis of Assisi (!!), visited City Lights Bookstore (home of the Beats), and ate way too much garlic at The Stinking Rose.

 










And on Monday we went to Muir Woods...and hiked through cool redwood forests and over sunlit hills for 5 miles to the ocean. Does life get better than that?

 











The Bay Area is so, so, so beautiful: it makes me really hopeful for the New Earth.

And I love my sisters. <3

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Be Curious:

Well, we decided to put off unpacking for another week.
Instead, we rented this little car:




And drove up to Redding to spend a day with this little guy (our favorite nephew!) and his dad!



We went swimming at Whiskeytown Lake where the water was all sparkly because of so much fool's gold in the sediment:



And got yummy frozen yogurt from Razzlicious for dessert that night!

The next day Sean and I drove to Ashland, Oregon:

 

Where we ate twice at our favorite restaurant EVER (Dragonfly):



And also attended a spectacular performance of Romeo and Juliet by the Oregon Shakespeare Festival, where we had 2nd row seats!! This scene is Mercutio's death. :(



Then we drove home through the mountains, trees, and twilight, talking about God and Harry Potter and Truth and all kinds of wonderful things.

The next day I had massive amounts of dental work done, and then we had sandwiches with Karrisa, Liz, and Tim at a cozy sandwich shop in Montara.



And now we're home, and maybe we'll get some unpacking done today! You never know!